heart

my heart beat for who...
who i have to be heart beat with,
i will be sorry if i had say anything hurt u...
i nt mean to be hurt u or somethg else...
the moment i m hurt,my heart pain..
i feel sorry and pain...
so sorry...

to be unknow

 u wird nie wissen,wurde u schatten in meinem herzen...
juste une rose...romance et nette avec dechiree
i wont irqad,i nt jippruvaw li ghandhom jigu kura
bcuz lch spure mein herz noch schlagt,ist herz weniger
es mich wissen,dass wir in der lage,um wieder zuruck pflegen...
i dunnoe warum,ich will auf diese thk,aber ich m
j'essaie de ne pas penser apres que nous gona...
mais ce jout pres,me font penser que oui
 li ahna nt jigu tressure jew truste bizzejjed
de sorte que i give up,dont crois que je ne t'aime plus

fresh air~

yea...after the rain...the air is damn fresh...
i m feeling so oversea...maybe i m ready yet to leave...
its make me feel good and better...
its also make me feel wan to type in chinese...
>
i have to learn in english...
is so weak...have to speak out more...
i just love those freah air nw...
relaz me,untill i m lazy to do my work...
hahaha,izit the reason,
i m just to happy to get my result 2day...
and have to take my cert 2moro...and leave soon
but...i will still miss my A' classmate,
for sure...
i will miss everyone if i m leaving...
gona to fly~~~

i m not belong❤never stop

yea,all i wanna say is...
i m not belong here...
i never felt this before...
i thoughi could be important sometimes
but at last i knew i m not...maybe,being a special 1,
doesnt suit to me...maybe i m just fast to forgotten...
its really mean i choice the right thg to goes...
even every time that i though its doesnt realize...
its just my illusion,its nothing else to anyone...
my life wasnt sparkling,so that anyone can leave me alone
so no one will tressure or even care...
sometimes, i hope i could  never stay,
i could hope that nothing else will change...
but my mind keep on rushing me to go anywhere,non to stop at here
its will just hurt my heart or even stop beating...
i have so much impression to blog,
to think,i know,i was thinking to much...
i m just passing by,with non of you will care...
so do i,
this life doesnt belong to me...
be wild ambition for my future,to get anything that i wan...
and to be the perfert that i want...non-to be stop for anything anymore...
no 1 will just stop their step for me...so pass it by
my life doesnt sparkling at this way anymore..
no one could know me anymore,non of you
Beware my future life,thats nothing more to stop me❤

pressure hit on my head

i never felt out that i will be so much pressure

felt so less confidence...

nor...is totally unconfidence

my heart was rushing...

is something like ant running though

i m too nervous

i feel i m going to sleep and never woke up

why?

why i m so worrying...

i know my level,i know my result is damn bad

but...

i still...

stubborn enough to run away...

i keep asking myself...

why i should do this...

why i dun like to stay here

is that any different?

every night before i went to sleep...

i m thking i m outside...

watever any place

is cold...and lonely...

maybe this is the thg that i want

maybe most of ppl think that i shouldt go for so far

is wasting money,time...or somethg else...

but,izit the problem?

m i having much time to thk that i m going?

or univ will accept me?

with my worse result?

nowadays...

money,time,place and result will be my problem to study...

i m really enough pressure of it...

>

gona mad with all those stuff

nowadays

although sometimes we will say something hurt,
but my heart still feel so warmful...
at there...
i get inclusive,thanksful,happiness from u...
i m so happy...although i never say it out to u...
if i leave 1 second from u...
i know...i will miss u...
really thanks for inclusive that i did wrong
thanks for listen me everythg..
thanks for rubbing my tears...
i feel so touchful to be with u
haiyoo..
stupid me...

haiz...
other then happiness...i still feel so confuse...
confuse about my study to oversea..
going to take my cert result soon...
but...
its so disturbed me...
i know that my BM and ENGLISH didt pass...
hw could i get to oversea...i feel so worry...damn worry
and feel so helpless about my result...
haiyooo...
hope i can get in better uni lor...>
i must fight to my future><

moving,thking Future plan,feeling

before i change my plan...
the plan is like this...
-20 graduation for interior diploma
-21 go for ukORgermanORaus finish degree interior
-22 back hometown for work
-24 open company
-26 marry
-27 1st son
-29 2nd daughter
-35 travel whole world
....somethg like tat...is sooo jobless....
but then...nw i change alot


Now plan
-20 graduation for diploma interior design
-21 UK or AUS for degree interior...
-22 UK or AUS for jewellery design
-24 back country(maybe not)^^start work..saving money
-26 open 1st company
-28 open 2nd company
-30 start travel anywhere i like

Tats all...after listen my cousin say...marry follow feeling...
well...maybe its nt inside my list...but my future list about is like tat lar...

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forgot to say once again...happy birthday to my dear ahgirl...
hehehe>

2night i feel so hard to asleep..
listening to my song will digging out the tear that i have drop for u
or even the sadness u bring it to me...
now...
i just hope...
no more sadness...
i dun like those feeling upset me...
maybe i should be alone...untill i find the really right person
with blissful...with hapi...with smile...
no more tear or upset...
i hopefully someone really treat me so..true heart,smile,joy
i m really so powerless to treat u

escape

yr word...yr though...
yr thking...yr mind...
i dunnoe!
the thg i never say,u say...
i escape...
cuz i never feel tat u really use true heart...
....
if i wont wake up 2moro...tats good...
it wont be nightmare chasing my dream...
and get to sleep well 2moro,
to 4got yr selfish...

but time always make me thking of...
i....just feel disappointed...
and sick....
nw....i dunnoe wat to do again...
i dun like tat feeling...
HATE THAT SELFISH PERSON

Have Fun❤

yea...2day my sis and bro having exeat...
so they going to stay 2 night...sunday then back...
I ALSO BACK AT SUNDAY!!!
we when to 1u at 2...is very late...><
then went to BBQ plaza...wohooo~

our fav❤

see~hw enjoy we are><....XD

then then...

after that i go for hair wrap><

for once...

is colourful and i like it...

then...shop...

O ya~

i buy a really nice dress at topshop~

wohoo~really in love~~*dancing*

hehehe...then windown shop for zara,pull and bear...

bla bla....didt buy...cuz...spend too much for 2day..><

then...we buy sushi be4 we back...

then having sushi+ super mini monopoly at my home

really a great day i spend with my sis and bro...

❤them forever

Clock

the needle goes to the future...
behind the needle stand many memories
that cant goes back...
so look forward

Ambition

yea..i got an ambition...
for?my future,my facilities, my life
...
i suddenly feel wanna do somethg for my future...
study hard...find another way to be successful...
start thinking to plan for my future road...

nw,i really care my future...i confuse...
i m so affaid...i get nothing here...
i dun care if i m here alone or nt...
i dun care wheather is wat the hell leave me here...
i dun thk anymore...


All i have to do is study then pay back to my parent...❤
GOSH~i miss them alot...
so...nt dare to call them nw...
is late...

u will be...if u wan...
SUCCESS...FUTURE

WHAT MARCH DO?

yea...
firstly,i m going back my hometown...*clap*
hehehe...y do i so happy...?
haiyoo...
i feel suddenly wanna ear crab...but nt crap....
hahahaha...
when i become so jobless...
guess my brain is getting burn..
i thk so


Well!!!
i second thing i have to is...
Take my license...
so sad to hear that u know...
i m getting 19...
BUT!!i dun have yet...
Cuz...i really feel so scare to drive...
haiz...
nw...i have to start again...
This time...dun let me give up...
just let me bang those car...
i dun wan to be affaid anymore...
its going to have some ricks><
...i feel so sad with my parent money again...
so make me guilt...><

Then...hang out with fren...and meet him><
so shy...hehehe...
Cant wait...
7th..march...XOXO...
...
so now...continue to drink my water...
my flu and throat getting worse...
i hate those feeling...><...
yoorr....suddenly feel so langkawi mode....
i wan beach...ocean~~~~><
i wan a retro car...is pretty cool...huh?
hahaha...XDXD