god

God love us...
but...
the choice is ourselves...
to be or nt to be....
the road is ourselves...
to changes it nt...
to believe or nt...

believe me...
when sadness or everything come to you
believe and feel god...
u will get those power to make u alive...
although is blind alley...
but is doesnt matter...
cause,believe god stand for u...
god wanted u to learn everything...
because god loves u...
he wants to be the braveness girl in this world...
i will be...god
u noe that...
god,loves u alot....
peace and joy

cute小鬼

哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
is really too happy,lol
yesterday for some reason...
i really cant sleep...so that i open my lap top
and seach for something fun,that can make me happy...
it really make it...
i found娱乐百分百then....
hahaha...didt sleep untill now....lol
is really funny....
especially,when小鬼,show,rainie....
the way their talk...really damn funny...
hahahaaha...really inlove with them....
their make me laugh><
hehehe...
athough nw i still wanna watch...
but seem really so late...
i still have to wake up be4 8 oclock in the morning for the test...
so...for sure i need to rest nw>

take a rest

seriously,being a strong woman...
is really tired for me..
being overexert let me over breath
sometimes i really wan to be a little girl...
to really caring by someone..
having a hard shoulder,maybe will be what i want
but is seriously hard for me
unload a hard shell...
and let people know how to pretending strong and weak
make me felt how much pity that i m...
sometimes its make me feel m i pretending to be overexert or i just use to be
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the truth always be the uglyness...
as everyone know...
is really find a true heart...
although u really find it...
it may became untruth...it cover up...
the more u grow the scary is the world was...
this world was too dark,and u will never see a real true heart...
world,why u became so dark,and make human so unhapiness?
maybe,i should take a break...and look around the world...
and hopefully the world still in rainbow

u r lucky

for me,
u were really lucky that i had leave u...
u were lucky that after i left u,u found a really nice person
u were lucky that i do...abit jealous
u were lucky that,i really do feel torturing my heart

ya...maybe,i should say that...
i really have to give up....
or even no more step though your life
allow me to do that...
allow me to be the last selfish...

i dont know why
why god let us meet each other with so suffering...
perhaps,is suffer and pain more than everything
i dont even know whats the lessons for...

maybe...
it might only be a pieces of my life...
and i still even not yet the road of my half way
as i say so"never say you know the last word about any human heart''

maybe i should let go...look front...and walk my long journey
untill my heart totally 4got the feeling...
it will be a brand new heart to accept anyone...
with pure,honesty,full of expect heart

1st days...

yea...being my new life...
should i say that so?
hahaha...
2day my 1st day in ELS...
i though it will be nervous...
bt...those people at there was so friendly...nice...and kind...
so...i really have nice time at there...
although i dont have any friends there...
is really a nice place to study there...
i m sure that my english will improve more...
i really quite like teacher there...
is really fun...

bla bla

untill this moment i just realise that...
not i dont trust anyone...
but just no one can be trust...
so,is not my problem
and from now on,i wont blive or even trust any promise or anyone
fren,lover...all bull shit..
i use my life just for my family!
even my tears or even sadness
and
i will never ever 4give any...lier..
i will let them get any punishment..
i will!!for sure!!!
never trust anyone,for this moment
and never trust,bcuz it is ugly,and
and...i will be die,and...thats brand new me