Shhhh: March 2011

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

...

How long this kind of thing will be end
how long can we stay for peaceful
my heart is surrounding with suffer and pains
how long can you understand about us or even our future
how long can you stop my pain for just grow a lil on you
when can only our relationship stop and be solve
with only peacefully and only us
without rely on others
if you love me
u could only think about me
i dont care what ever going on,
i dont care now what situation about us
at least give our relationship privacy
I know family meant to you
but so do i,
my family are the most important to you
in here, not only you think about it
i think about our future and how would you face in my family
so pls, i really hope at least, a lil,
think and stand on my side
but you make me down
again and again
so now, how could i stand and face
for you, of cuz, it doesnt matter,
for me, is whole life, i care,
not as you,
my heart really dont get the situation.
its confuse what to do,
to continue the be your way
or way my future by my own?
i really need time to figure out this stupid question

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Homesick without

Seriously, i love today while spending my whole day to do my work
it make me feel i m stepping forward to my lovely future
relax and doing my work rather than nothing, right?
feel good after done apart of my visual diaryXD
and ya,
i have to think about how should i done my blog layout
must come out with something cute and creative, huh?
must put more effort on it
not only this,
but everything
i wan to do it good
i wanna try,
to be like a woman
hahahaha ><
*shy*
i *m* my parents, sister, brother, and friend badly
but still, i dun wan to go back on june.
i really mean it.
i wanna to try my little best to stay.
i miss my mum and dad T.T
are they lonely without me?
i feel bad sometimes
to leave my sweetie home
i hope the world wont be end soon
as long as, give me to try my best to stay with my family
and i truly hope that i can graduate and learn more thing at here
heart my family~T.T
homesick without homesick
no more act like kids as last time i did

Saturday, March 26, 2011

zzzz

Seriously, i dont know since when i busy with korean drama and miss everything in my life
such as active in facebook, blog and even my cutie twitter
really feel so bad, have to be more active
otherwise no one will miss me, huh?
hahaha...
my life seems really so empty now,
have to stop skipping my class and wake up in such as morning class
pls la, evelyn,
you're 20 years old girl,
c'mon, fight for your future
stop watching your romantic korean drama...
back back...back to reality
LOL...
feel bad, feel bad==
But!!!
i still can't wake== BIG LOL
WTH me...feel so useless
zzzz

Monday, March 21, 2011

this is what we say world

I would love to recommend this movie

"Battle Los Angeles"

I love this type of movie that lots of action and intention

is damn stimulation

The main point of this movie

show the braveness of soldiers,

the tear and fear of war

They all are prepared to contribute to their country to the world

with no fear.

how awesome they are great they are

i m really proud of who ever being soldiers and going to protect their country or world

They all might have family and still... they use their body and heart to protect everyone they could

and this is what we could say...

The world

we all....as human should do the same thing

you can cry, but be brave

Be brave as soldiers

Awesome Movie!!!

Lastly P.S. so excited i m going to have one Gstar jeans and my lovely mac pro><

Thursday, March 17, 2011

R.I.P사랑

hmmm...
what can i say
i give myself some space and time
this few days
to feed back,
and look at myself in mirror.
i know, we aren't suitable.
many of you might think that
aren't suitable just an excuse
but for me, i decide, bcuz i really found in this way
i make this decision in my best and courage.
At first, i really feel struggle and dunno what can i do
i dont give an excuse for my love.
But it just come out this way
but for me, i do appreciate that everything you had done for me
you give up so many thing and come here,
i feel thankful but still,
it cant mix up
cuz, i dint doubt at how much u could love me.
i feel so sorry, for every time my rudeness, my careless, my bad temper
is really not your fault at all.
maybe i love wasn't enough, maybe it couldn't give more
it couldn't enough for me to change anything for you.
i did't feel disappointed
i know many people could feel that
i m really sorry for whom that with big hope for us
i know is unfortunately to let go a good guy
but, now, i just can follow my feeling and what my heart told
to let it feel better
i learn, i fall,
and now i grow and realize
i wont feel sad
cause, every step is a lesson
for me to look forward
we are peaceful
nothing to be debate or argue
my life still beautiful and awesome
so nothing to worry,
and it will get better and best
this, i m sure
i m trying to making my life
and really feel great
that Jang Geun suk
U re so rock and give me power,
this two days.
R.I.P

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

to be brave, to breath

After so many,
i m unsure
confuse
tired
confuse of izit real
or just a moment
so i can split out
i couldn't say anyone fault
there's no regret
just do it
tired is bcuz
my careless
it's not enough
bcuz i dunnoe how to give it more
i cry always, after all...
no becuz of angry or sad
just bcuz of personal feeling
i m trying to fight with the sad thg, emo stuff
i m letting myself happy,
no matter how
this is what i have to live for
I miss my mum, my dad, my sis or even my bro
just bcuz some part of me is missing
i feel sorry,
but still, i m taking good care
i will try not to be weak
i m trying nt to tear off
because i wanna love myself more than anything
not just bcuz i m tired or selfish
just trying appreciate and protect my self
in an other way.