wth with going on

i would say that the nest ielts test going to reach by 21next month
i really felt nervous,i wouldnt prepare so well...
i even cant sleep well...i dun like this feeling...
i really hate ielts...
it make me so much pressure on it...
gosh,
besides this i even i havent register yet,and the workshop as well
i remember last ielts...
i fail to reach the point i should get it
although is sad enough,
bt as long as u were be with me
now aday...
i really affaid..i felt affaid to anythg
i had lost my gun...
i really have much pressure on it...
and my face getting worse,
besides that my dark circle eye also getting worse
why i felt my life getting worse right now...
i really hate it...
jesus,help me pls