Sunday, November 28, 2010

i know i m stupid...
i always be so stupid and blind when i was inlove
i know after yesterday...
i can feel that your love getting less and less
not even 6 or 5
not even more than half...
or even half
maybe i should prepare mind same as you..
i m just scare,
i dont want to lose you,
i dont know why.
i hope we were fine

Monday, November 22, 2010

安静了


是不是我又做错了什么,
开心的,总是那么短暂
还是,是我想太多了?
我不想了,
我放空,我真的好累好累
又这样,过了一天
如果有一天,
就这样好了
过了一天就一天
没意义
我好烦,
心里好多压抑
可是,却不懂怎么做
开始麻木,
失去原本该有的理智
开始讨厌自己
我不想胡事乱想
没有人想。
太多太多的,
想不起。
我的爱,该收回
该还人的,就还
压抑太久
太辛苦,很难受
却不想这样
太多太多的伪装
太多太多的保护层
只会一次次的让自己受伤
一次次的躲在房
一次次的谁不着
世界太多的不可理喻
然而我也一样
那么的烦人
那么的讨人厌
那么的不讨喜
无论多大的努力
让自己开心
笑得在大声
人生还是那么没意义
那么的失败
那么的讨人厌
大哭一场,很多场
并没有让自己好过,
让自己开心
不想这样不想那样
想要这样
并不是像童话里
的圣诞老公公给礼物的简单
没有人能跟着自己脚步走
就这样了

freak

thats y i dont like something is unsure,
its will make me form heaven drop untill underground
i m sure that u wont come,
so,thats y,
promise always doesnt mean wanna do it,
it can be unsure,it can be anythg
so wats the break promise stand for?
then who the hell that create those words?
hermm...seems like i have to go for another plan?
travel?for 19 days?
FUCK ME FUCK ME!!!!
damn shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

God doesnt find a way for me,
i m not mean to blame god
maybe i m the person who need to blame myself
all i hope,
doesnt exist..
the more i try to be strong
i more i cant
my heart like a black hole,
even i,
cant get it..
i always dont get wat i wan,
untill meet someone
i wanna fix my heart up
and lets its stay
but still its end up ntg
maybe is my fault
changing nt enough better?
or i still keep locking myself of of the world
i dont wan to be like that
but i dont know hw
i feel badly,bt other than give up i dunnoe wat should i do
i noe i love u,but tats doesnt enough
everyone seems wan more and more
my heart really stuck and suck
i hate myself for loving someone,
its let me feeling i m going to kill myself
maybe i m nt ok enough
i dunnoe how to move on my love to u
and we end up
cuz i wanna escape

Thursday, November 18, 2010

9:

maybe,its true
i can live without u
i m strong enough
and u too

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

7:started

finally i have started my class...
yea...if nt i will be waiting and doing nothing around here,
doing nothing make me hate that,
i hope i were tired enough not to think something else
hopefully,i will get to use for it...
and,i really do hope everything was fine to us

P.S yeah~got cha~finally i have to bb iphone...
          u can wear with my hello kitty case already.
          but,seriously,quite regret about sign the $69 plan
          seriously no worth at all,argghh stupid me